Jujutsushi Wa Yuusha Ni Narenai

Chapter 145: Confession

After taking multiple random turns, we arrived at the next fairy square. When we parted ways with the Souma party, we had intentionally gone along paths different from the direction pointed by the compass so as to make tracking us that much harder. I guess this should be difficult enough.

Welp, sorry Souma-kun. Reinas body turned bad after all

Because of the curses effect, as soon as wed arrived at the square, Reinas corpse had ceased to move and turned to ash. Its the same thing that happened in Masarus case.

But unlike my best friend, whose corpse-doll went bad after receiving heavy damage from Higuchi, Reinas was in prime condition.

But it nevertheless crumbled to nothing, which might just have been Reinas resistance of sorts. Seriously, what a bitch.

Haaah

I heave a deep sigh.

Reaching this safe zone after that mess from before really took a lot out of me. I had a lot to think about, but my head was starting to draw a blank.

I was in an extreme state of fatigue. Physically as well as mentally.

Kotarou-kun, how are you holding up?

Tired I think Ill sleep

I dropped everything I was carrying and plonked down on the soft fairy square grass. I didnt have the energy to make a spiderweave hammock like usual.

And this happened just as I went to lie down.

Wha!

She was hugging me. This incredible softness, this warmth, and this amazing smell. Mei-chan was holding me close to that large chest of hers in a face to face hug.

Eh, umm, what is it?

Im so sorry For not staying by your side

My face was buried in her tig ol bitties so I couldnt exactly see her expression. But I could imagine it well enough.

Mei-chan, she was crying.

No, its all good You did end up saving me after all

Her simple act of holding me like this was more than enough. This was my salvation. In heart, in body, in everything.

Im so, so glad youre alive but still, Im sorry, Im so sorry, Kotarou-kun

Heey, you dont need to apologize

What matters is that were alive.

Im alive and not in imminent danger anymore. All thanks to Mei-chan. Shes someone who could tip the power-balance between me and Souma Yuutos cohorts.

Shes the berserker who had become my ally. I couldnt even begin to express my gratitude for just that, and yet. And yet, just what cause did she have to apologize?

It was tough, wasnt it?

Sure, it was tough.

You went through a lot of pain and hardship, didnt you?

I did. I suffered and suffered. Almost to the point of death, multiple times.

But what about it? We were all in the same situation, all here, in this merciless isekai dungeon with monsters around every corner. The hardship came as a set.

Please, Kotarou-kun Dont cry

Eh

Im not crying.

I think.

Ill always stay with you. Ill carry your share of pain and hardship. So please Kotarou-kun, you dont have to hurt anymore

Im, not

Crying, not particularly hurt either.

Ill protect you. Absolutely, no matter what

I just had to struggle, over and over, only in order to survive.

Anything and everything youve done, Ill forgive them, Ill accept you

Right, I, to survive I

Even if God himself wont forgive you, I will. Its not your fault Kotarou-kun, you havent done anything wrong. So, cmon, please dont cry. Please dont hurt. Please, believe in me

Aaa, stop, stop it already. If you say it like that, all that stuff I buried deep down, tried to forget, all that shit I desperately tried to ignore Its all coming back.

It was so painful so scary Mei-chan was gone and I, I was alone

Mm

Rem was there, so I could manage somehow. We even beat a basilisk But that, was really pushing it

Mm

But then, I just HAD to end up meeting Higuchi And I Ahh, shitshit, I had to do it

Mm

I met up with others too. This time, we did get along But it took everything to get there. I had to work hard to get them to trust me. Im just a Shaman after all, I cant fight alone

Mm

I got separated, again. Then met more people It went to shit. Why couldnt she think, why couldnt she understand, seriously, why couldnt she at least try She started hating me for no reason

Mm

I Killed people

Mm

I killed Higuchi. Because he killed Masaru

Mm

I killed Reina. Because she killed Yamajun

Mm

Was it, was I wrong to do that?

Not at all, you did the right thing. Because, thanks to that, youre here alive now

Uuh

You gave your best to survive, every time. When no one would believe in you, all alone When you needed their strength, but just being with them only gave you pain, stress, anxiety, misery, and put intense pressure on you

U-uuu

Welcome back, Kotarou-kun. You dont need to hold it in with me, alright?

[Crying intensifies]

Aaah, Mei-chans absolutely right, Im crying like a bitch.

Wailing, screaming, the tears just keep coming.

But, its fine isnt it? Its just this once.

Because Ive finally, finally reunited with the one person I can trust from the bottom of my heart.

Fuaaaah

I cried, went to sleep, woke up, and yawned, loudly.

Y-yeahh, I ended up doing something extremely embarrassing Didnt think Id cry so much in front of Mei-chan. I had zero intention of doing that.

Haaah~

No, Ill admit it. I was broken, to the point where I didnt even realize it. My heart was messed up from all the piled up stress.

Asuna shoved me out, I missed the teleport, went solo. That was just the first of my troubles.

Versus the basilisk, if Rem didnt do what she did, I wouldve lost. It really was a close call.

And just my luck, the next person I had to meet happened to be Higuchi. Monsters, theyre scary as a matter of course, but humans, theyre can be a whole other vector of scary. I could feel no emotion the whole time I had to look at that bastard Higuchis face.

In the end, Masaru ended up dead, and I succeeded in killing Higuchi. But then, Reina stole my way out. I was already at my physical limits, and then thrown into a situation of complete and utter hopelessness.

But as luck would have it, Randou-san picked me up. Tendou-kun and his gang, with them, it actually turned out pretty well. We had a good relationship going. I can still think of them as allies I can actually trust But I cant deny that getting to that point was stressful.

I had to employ my low-tier talking skills to somehow get them to accept me. Depending on what I did, I couldve ended up as useless trash #2 next to Randou-san. Maybe even left behind to fend for myself.

For better or worse, my fate depended on my own actions. That was certainly an endless source of stress and pressure. Thats what it meant to start at the bottom rung of a party.

Thanks to my diligence, no, probably thanks to the good nature of Randou-san and the other gals, I was eventually accepted as one of them But that all went to shit, from one moment of leisure. Well, even if Id been alert, I couldnt have prevented that Arachne from fishing me up like tuna.

After that, thats when I met princess Reina and her circle of peasants.

Looking back, this party felt just as shit as Souma Sakuras harem party. They simply refused to work together in a productive way, just remembering is starting to give me a headache.

So I had to leash them on warm meals, hot baths, and soft bedding. Even Reina couldnt simply ignore the higher level of civilized life. If theyd actually wanted to work with me, I wouldve given them these amenities anyway, free of charge The fact that I had to barter for their cooperation just goes to show how untrustworthy they were.

I did end up gaining enough influence to have ordering rights over them, and a vague sense of trust had started to form. But it was still a fragile, limited trust. Without Yamajun, who actually held us together.

What if Souma Yuuto hadnt popped in after I killed Reina? I wouldve had to lead them through more dungeon. But without Yamajun, I wouldnt be able to do anything as the party slowly broke apart. I didnt have the self-confidence. If this party were to face a truly dire situation, Im not sure we could overcome it.

When it came to that, I would surely leave them and run off on my own again.

But then, a shaman going solo is like, seeing how the challenges of the dungeon kept getting tougher, I could only see a bleak future down that path. Ultimately, for me, allies are a requirement.

Its, better this way

I mean, reuniting with Mei-chan was the best thing that couldve happened.

Despite my biggest mistake ever, as in, incurring the wrath of Souma Yuuto, being together with Mei-chan again, became my salvation. After all, my heart was cornered enough to warrant wailing like an idiot.

Doesnt change that it was embarrassing

Its shameful, as a guy. I know Mei-chan is a kind girl, so she wouldnt shame me for doing something like that But then, shed also never see me as a man would she.

Dammit, theres already Randou-san who treats me like one of her little brothers. Is Mei-chan gonna treat me like a crybaby now? Cmon, wheres my romance flag?

Kotarou-kun, done changing?

Ah, yeah

I was called by Mei-chan, so I put aside my embarrassment and regret, and tottered out of cover.

Id gone to sleep right away after I was done crying my fill, so my clothes were still dirty from battle.

Even thought I was that dirty, Mei-chan let me sleep on her lap, without a word. I just cant believe how much she spoils me. I wonder, what if Mei-chan secretly got the Mommy unique skill?

Anyway, after I calmed down thanks to the sleep, Mei-chan gave me one of her divine smiles and volunteered to do the laundry.

These days, Id gotten used to cleaning up for myself, but back when it was just the 2 of us, Mei-chan was always proactively doing those chores, and I really helped myself to that kindness of hers. Now, while I do feel a bit reluctant to let her do all the work, my willingness to be spoiled won out, and I indulged once again.

That being the case, I was now changed into my gym clothes. And since she was at it, Mei-chan was also in her own gym uniform, currently washing her own clothes together with

!?

She was in her jersey. Seeing that, I froze.

Kotarou-kun, whats up

What do you mean what? Im getting extra eyefuls of your exemplary cleavage there, miss. Wait, is she doing that on purpose? Is this the new trend in girls fashion amongst dungeoneers?

She was wearing our schools signature deep blue jersey. Its zipper, halfway down. But thats normal. You see girls wear it like that in gym class all the time.

See, the problem is, she was doing the laundry, meaning, that her undershirt and bra were both not at their designated locations, meaning, that under her jersey she was naked. Boobies, raw, naked boobies, my friends.

And since she happened to undo her zipper halfway in that state, look. You cant not look, I cant not look Ahh, such a divine valley of white. Such, an impactful, explosive sense of eros.

Everyone in class knew Randou-san as the girl with the most bombastic breasts, but Mei-chan, sweet mother of the Lord. If we went by pure centimeters, Mei-chan topped our class, topped the school, heck, I bet she topped the whole town.

And she was actually showing off those ginormous jugs with just me here, meaning Is she inviting me? Is she really? No wait, didnt I just have my face smothered by those naughty knockers? This is insane, my emotions were a mess at the time, and I literally wasnt aware of my tremendous bliss. I only felt strongly relieved by the sense of being enveloped, and wasnt in any state of mind to consider their hugeness, their texture, or their sexiness.

Aaah, Im such a dummy, dumdum, why, WHY didnt I take the chance to get a good feel. Having stepped into such a land of bliss, no well, I dove face first into it, but anyway, I, dont, remember, a thing!

No, but, this in itself, is pretty bad too Now that Im back to normal, the radiance of her blessed cleavage are poison for my impure eyes. Oi, Im getting poison damaged here, Venomic Vessel, do your damn job!

Shit, I, I cant Her massive mammaries looked taut enough that they would burst out any moment, and my eyes simply refused to budge. This is bad, I wont be able to make any excuses at this rate.

M-Mei-chan, urm Your, uh, zipper, looks a bit low?

I squeaked out, gathering the vestiges of reason left in me to angle my eyes away, but having them constantly flitting back on target.

It doesnt go up more, too tight, you see

Whats with that sexilicious reason!? Youre only supposed to find that sort of line in hentai.

I, I see

Mm, I kinda feel like theyve gotten bigger, you know?

Theyre still growing!?

No, wait, theyre not JUST bigger. I can tell, I just know. For I am, the self-proclaimed top titty connoisseur in class, and I claim That those breasts have transformed into something much greater.

In the beginning, Mei-chans out-of-bounds udders simply couldnt fight the forces of gravity. They sagged quite a bit.

However, thanks to her dungeon diet, and the Blessed Body skill, she now had the proportions to put any bust boasting gravure idol to shame. For her breasts had slowly begun to rise. Like how a space rocket escapes the bounds of gravity, she went from having simply huge tits, to huge rocket tits that stood high and proud.

It was close to the limit before, but presently, even Mei-chans one of a kind XXL jersey became no match for her megalithic mountains.

Here I stood witness to something truly fearsome. Mei-chan, she might just be the one to kill me

Dont, mind it too much

Ill, try

Erm, well I guess its alright, if you look a little

Yup, dead. Im dead now. Goodbye world

I mean, well, Im on the bigger side, so I tend to notice when people stare But, if its Kotarou-kun, it doesnt really bother me so, I dont really mind

I see, sounds tough

I spoke, to the breasts.

Excuse me. May I please use the washroom now?

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TL: Scallop