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Chapter 159: Alexa #2

[W-what are you saying all of a sudden?]

Because of the abruptness of how our conversation changing, I stuttered and stiffly replied.

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Without changing her serious gaze at me, Alexa and me staring into each other eyes in silence.

After for about 30 seconds, she began to speak one again.

[Alex, do you have any interest in me as a woman?]

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Trying to perceive her emotion hidden within her cold and emotionless face, I observe her carefully without answering her question yet.

I gazed at her eyes, deeply, trying to dig any hidden emotion within them.

Deep into her eyes, I saw a lot of emotion mixed it up, chaotically mingled together.

[Alexa if it was inconvenient to you, you can tell me anything Maybe you can pour your emotion to me, and eased your emotion a bit after telling it to someone

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Looking at your eyes, I see it that you seem to have something that troubled your mind]

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[Sigh

It seems you are quite sharp as a man..

You know, women tend to not like a man who was too sensitive, and made them can't hide their emotion in front of them]

After giving me a brief silence, she replied while gave me a thin smile.

Even though it was a lonely one.

[So, do you have something to tell me about? Is it about Gart?]

[No it's actually about myself]

[Eh?]

.............

[These days, I somewhat lost my motivation to continue my life as an adventurer and continue to live by slaughtering monsters and stuff]

[...]

[To tell you the truth, I used to live and grown up on the Southern Continent, living as a mercenary in there]

[...Ah, I hear it from Silvi, the Southern Continent is quite chaotic, after the sudden drought hitting most of the land in there]

[Right, that's why mercenary is quite common in there, after all, there's a continuous war either on a smaller scale or a bigger scale that happened almost every day in there.

With how people trying to fight to get a rare limited small fertile place within the desert for their kind to life, it's obvious the only thing for the people in there to survive is struggle and robbing each other fertile place]

[I see, so that's why you said you're quite knowledgeable about the desert before then, how you can get here on the western continent?]

[I escaped after the leader of the mercenary I am in, found out about my disguise as a male.

After knowing that I was a woman, he trying to force me to be his woman and rape me.

......

Long story short, I successfully escaped from them, albeit it was not easy after that as they chasing me everywhere like a mad dog.

During my escape, I'm quite lucky to meet the Mysterious merchant who was traveling around the continent. 

After meeting them, I asked them to bring me somewhere by paying them with a treasure that I stole before escaping from that mercenary

Thus, they dropped me here]

[Mysterious merchant] 'this is the second time I heard about their name'

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[Alex, honestly when I decided to give my virginity to you, I plan to quit the Gallius Sword party and trying to stop living as an adventurer

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You know, I used to dream to live a simple life in some countryside and being a normal housewife when I was a child.

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But fate speaks differently.

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Basically, having a dream like that was a luxurious thing for a woman living in the Southern Continent, the Continent which was always full of war and bloodshed all over the place.

That dream was already destroyed along time ago when I lost my home and family there.

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That's why, when I came to this continent, I became somewhat lost]

She paused for a bit,

[The dream that I considered impossible, became closer here.

But I know, deep within my heart, being a normal housewife and woman is impossible for me, since my hand already dyed in red with the blood of countless lives that I took in the past

That's why, in the end, I decided to be an adventurer.

My life gradually calmed down a bit when I live as an adventurer here, and it's changed when I met Gart.

Seeing how nave and a warm person like him is quite new for me, who always met a rough and ugly man who always lusting my body in the past]

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[And so you encounter a thing called love that time?]

Seeing her stopped and being silent, I don't know why, but I subconsciously leaking out these words from my mouth.

[Love, is it

I don't know for sure, but maybe it's not it

Maybe I just have my interest in him in order to fulfill my selfish reason...

After all, Gart is quite nave, so when I think about it carefully, deep inside my heart, my feeling to him is not that clean and pure like love

Maybe, I just like him because he never makes an issue about my past.. and so, there's this ugly thought inside me that wants to use him to achieve my selfish dream, forget all the sins I have done in the past, and became a new normal woman with him as my husband

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hahaha, what an ugly woman am I]

She removed her gaze from me, turning her head back to absentmindedly peeking at the sandstorm outside, as she gave me a dry laugh at her latter sentence.

Seeing the sadness permeated her being, I silently embraced her now-looking fragile body into me.

Feeling my hand which was started reaching her body, she not struggled and let it fall into my embrace.

......

In this silence, I didn't speak and just silently comforting her like this.

As this silence continues,

[You know, deep inside me I know that I don't deserve to get Gart love

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I'm a dirty woman who was already stained in blood and cruelty...

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in the past, I always wonder why I born to be weak... If I was blessed and born as a stronger individual like you, maybe I didn't have to live a dark life like I used to, and can protect things as you do

That's why I always envy your power and for me, having this thought to you who know nothing made me realize how ugly and unsightly I am

......, I don't deserve to live to be someone else wife like a pure maiden and be a mistress to someone else->

[Stop that dark thought]

Hearing she began depreciating her value more and more, I decided to abruptly cut her words.

[I know, you just started thinking this dark though after feeling being rejected by someone you like

I know you just overthinking things, and fall deeper into your own dark feeling

But for me, seeing you can realize those things already shown me that you're not ugly as you always believe.

Alexa, I think you have to move on from your past and live a new life.

Like you just said before, you are just confused after living in this new environment which is far different from the place where you grew up.

So, stop minding about your past too much and life for the future

Maybe, Gart is not the one for you.

But I believe, you will find someone else that could accept you for who you are]

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I gave her my own thought about her current circumstance and continued to caress her back to ease her chaotic feeling.

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In this silence, I continue to give my warmth to her with my embrace.

Slowly, I feel her hand moving toward my back.

She started hugging me and tighten the grip of her hug as if answering me with a silent thanks.

*Whisper[ You are such a ladykiller]

while she had her face buried in my chest, she was suddenly whispering at me with a hint of playfulness within her sad low tone.

[Hahaha~

Thanks for the compliment~

Anyway, stop thinking about those negative things.

And stop thinking that being my mistress is some sort of punishment okay?

Isn't that make me look like some evil degenerate that always lusting for a woman's body?]

[You don't? looking at you who always ogling my tits and ass, I thought you were exactly just as you describe]

[Hey!]

Giggle* giggle*

And so, Alexa started to brighten her mood after having some small joke banter with me.

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Cough* Alex cough

[Anyway, Alexa, if you really plan to stop being an adventurer, how about started living a normal life inside a new city I built.

Frankly speaking, there are still a few people living there and I need a talented person like you.

Also, considering that you want to start a new life, living somewhere where no one knowing you are a good thing to start and stabilize your emotion]

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[Thanks but can you give me some time to consider your offer?]

After some brief silence, Alexa replied while having her head turned at me and smile.

[Sure~]

After hearing my brief answer, Alexa smiled and then started kissing my lips.

Feeling her red soft lips, I gradually kissed her back as we still having our bodies embracing each other.

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[Gohon! Alex, did you really thought of making Alexa enter your harem?]

Just as I and Alexa trying to make out, all of a sudden, a somewhat feminine voice with a hint of anger, forcing me back to my sense.

Turning my head, I saw Anna who had her hands in her hip, looking at me with an unbelievable face.

Behind her, Anni just silently looking at us in amusement.

[II just trying to cheer her up!]

I answered stutteringly as I was startled by her sudden appearance. 

Anna who heard my replied, looking at me with a menacing face, seemingly being offended by my ridiculous answer that could only persuade a kid.

'Kuh! What a lame excuse that I suddenly spout!'

[Giggle*, maybe I should consider entering your harem for real~

After all, Alex is quite skillful at taking advantage of a fragile woman's heart. Fufu~]

Alexa who was still in my embrace, suddenly leaned her head at my chest while saying this with a hint of playfulness in it.

'As expected! I can't read this woman at all! Is she serious or joking, I simply can't read it!'