Chapter 39.3: Step-Brother's Toy (16)
“Today’s weather is really wonderful. It’s cloudless and refreshing, autumn is finally here.” Though there were still no colors within her eyes, she squinted her eyes as she enjoyed the afternoon sunlight, but the tender warmth of the sun almost made her feel as if she wanted to cry.
“Speaking of which, it’s been a while since my birthday. I am now twenty-one years old.” She looked at the silent Shen Rong with a smile and said softly, “Brother, don’t you think time flies too fast? When we first met, I was a mere twelve years old child, and you were just a teenager attending high school…”
“Yes, it’s been so long…” Shen Rong took a step towards her but was instantly startled by the way the woman stretched out her legs outside the window.
Gu MingYue stretched out her index finger and wave it back and forth, indicating silently for Shen Rong to not come over.
“Brother had always been an awkward person. I know you did not like me, and I used to work hard to change that, did I not?”
No, that’s not true. I’ve always liked you, but I was just stupid enough to not recognize my own wants at that time……
“Afterwards, when we did it, I was so full of hope that brother would finally accept and fall in love with me too, it would’ve been so great for us if we could be together forever.” The woman whispered softly in a tender voice, rather than talking to the man in the room, it seemed more like she was talking to herself.
I have already fallen for you… I have always loved you… Xiao Yue, please stay by Brother’s side, and we will be together forever……
“Later on, brother found a girlfriend, and broken the promise made to me, then… I got pregnant and gave birth to HanYi after running away from home.” Gu MingYue quickly summed up the years of her life in this world in one long sentence.
I was filled with joy when I found out that you have given birth to my child… HanYi is smart and adorable, but he had been crying a lot recently because he could not find you… And no matter how much I coax him… he… would not call me daddy…
“I have done my best in everything, and I have treated brother to the best I could…” The woman’s voice was filled with doubts, “Brother, have I ever wronged you in any way? Have I ever done anything to hurt you?”
No… I was always the one hurting you… Shen Rong’s back was straight with tension as he stared pleadingly at Gu MingYue, stretching out a hand in hopes of reaching her. “Xiao Yue……”
“Brother, does Song ZhenYi’s death have anything to do with you?” Gu MingYue asked in a soft voice and her expression was calm and natural, as if confirming an unimportant matter.
“I……” Shen Rong wanted to deny it and swear that it had nothing to do with him, but under her quiet but piercing stare, he realized that he had lost his voice and was unable to speak deceitful words.
“Where is HanYi now?” Gu MingYue did not care about the man’s changing expressions, and she continue her question with a longing look.
That’s right, HanYi! Shen Rong felt as if he had grasped an important point, Gu MingYue would definitely stay for the child……
“Xiao Yue, HanYi had been crying a lot recently, demanding to see his mother. He had lost a lot of weight and his eyes were red with tears every day. Do you want to see him?” He described the child’s situation in a sympathetic tone as he tried to coax her off the window sill. He stretched out his hand in an inviting gesture as he glanced at her softly with a look of anticipation.
“HanYi is brother’s child, and I believe brother can definitely take good care of him.” Gu MingYue paused for a second to grin at him, “After all, brother took so much energy and effort to get him back, right?”
Her grin filled him with dread and he wanted to rush over to her side immediately and carry her back to the hospital bed. Her every movement almost brought his heart up to his throat, and for a moment, he did not know what to answer.
Would she respond with a disappointed look if he said no? But if he said yes, she would definitely…
“This is the kind of weather for goodbyes.” Gu MingYue said in a soft and cheerful voice before stretching out her arms as if to embrace nothingness.
Shen Rong’s eyes widened in shock at her gesture.
Damn it! Why didn’t he choose a lower floor or a suite without a window when he was choosing her ward… It was inevitable because he had been so panicked at that time that he had not stopped to consider such possibilities. And after settling her in, he rushed out to buy some daily necessities that might be useful for her.
“Xiao Yue, please come down. I promise that I will give you anything you want.” For the first time, a panicked look flashed across Shen Rong’s face. His anxiety and panic were all conveyed to Gu MingYue from the changing expressions on his face and eyes.
“Ah… It’s too late, brother, you can never give me what I truly want… Because you had already destroyed it personally with your own hands~” The corners of her mouth slid up into a strange smile as she glanced at the man’s desperate and pleading face.
For a moment, a perverted pleasure rose from her heart and she realized that it was somewhat an interesting thing to look at another person’s tormented face.
No wonder Shen Rong enjoyed it so much…
Gu MingYue’s figure seemed to overlap with the woman dressed in hospital clothes in Shen Rong’s memories. At that time, the woman was also in the hospital and staring at him from the window sill.
The woman, who had a loving and gentle face, had smiled at him regretfully, “Ah Rong, I’m so sorry…”
Shen Rong felt as if time was going bonkers, and for a while, he could not distinguish the past from the present.
“Brother, do you love me?” Gu MingYue looked at him suddenly with a serious expression, “Can you forgo other women for me?”
Her words seemed to give rise to an infinite hope within Shen Rong’s heart, and he blurted out his response without any hesitation while his eyes on her were focused and affectionate, “Xiao Yue, I love you. Please come down from the windowsill, I promise that I will never have another woman in the future. Please, Xiao Yue, I’m sorry. Please give me a chance to correct my wrongdoings, Xiao Yue, you’re all I have……”
“Brother had many relatives and even a loving wife! How can I be all that you have?” The woman smiled contently with her eyebrows raised up in delight, as if she had heard some pleasing words from him.
You’re the only one I love, and you’re all that’s left of my heart… Without you, I’ll be alone in this world… I’ll be nothing but a walking dead… You’re the only one who possessed my reality and my true self…
Shen Rong repeated these words over and over again in his heart. His eyes were red and he slowly bent down to kneel on the cold floor.
“Xiao Yue, it’s all my fault, you can punish me however you want to. Here, I have a fruit knife. Come here and vent your anger on me. Brother is willing to pay you back all that you have suffered, Xiao Yue… Please… Don’t leave me alone in this world…”
But alas, the only response to his pitiful pleas was the woman’s lingering words, “Goodbye, brother~”
And under the brilliant sunlight that she could no longer see, the woman shut her eyes close, and lean forward. And as she fell, her hair fluttered beautifully in the air, while a carefree smile spread over her face, as sweet as if she had finally fulfilled a certain wish.
As for Shen Rong, he had rushed over to the window sill as fast as he could the moment he noticed her actions, however, he did not even touch the corners of her clothes and instead, was forced to watch her body crash onto the ground below.
In the short seconds of freefall, words flashed through Gu MingYue’s mind.
‘Love arises suddenly and it runs deep. The living would die, and the dead would be reborn, however, the living and the dead would no longer meet.’
Or maybe it was – ‘Deep hatred for not knowing what to do, and the difficulty of forgetting the present to mourn the past.’
She could still hear Shen Rong’s painful howl of grief, and that was sufficient for her.
And that’s the end for this BE arc! ? However, Chapter 60 would be the Extra chapter assigned to this arc, so stay tuned if you wish to know what happened to the characters in this world after Gu MingYue left.
Let me know what you think of this arc in the comments below! Not gonna lie but though the snusnu was delish, the plot sorta left a bad taste in my mouth. Now I need me some HE arcs ???